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2011-05-16T12:36:00.003+08:00

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This was me 2 years ago
Motivation to slim that much,
Mr Ahmad Luqman
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Now,
motivation goes to Rihanna.
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Let's hope i can achieve it.
Hah!

2010-09-30T17:57:00.004+08:00

Every cell in human body regenerates on average, every 7 years.
Like snakes, in our own way, we shed our skin.
Biologically, we are brand new people!
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We may look the same, we probably do.
The change isnt visible, at least not most of us.
But we all have changed,
Competely,
Forever!
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When we say things like people dont change,
it drives scientist crazy!
Because change is literally the only constant in all of science!
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Energy, Matter,
is always changing,
moving,
merging,
growing and
dying.
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It's the way people try not to change that is unnatural.
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The way we cling to what things were
instead of letting it be what they are.
The way we cling to old memories
instead of forming new ones.
The way we insists on believing
despite every scientific indications
that anything in this lifetime is permanent.
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Change is constant.
How we experience change that is up to us.
It can feel like death or
it can feel like a second chance at life.
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If we open our fingers,
loosen our grips,
go with it,
it can feel like pure adrenaline.
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Like at any moment,
we can have another chance at life.
Like at any moment,
we can be born all over again.

2010-09-08T06:42:00.004+08:00

Hi bloggie,

it have always been too long ago whenever i write to you aye?

I doubt anyone reads here already as always,

guess people got tired when they hopefully click on you but there isnt any new things..

but thank you in advance for people who still reads, or who happen to drop by..

it's nothing nice i should warn you but still, thank you for reading at least up till here :)

Well, with that on account,

I want to really spill in here..

i dont have energy or the courage to spill anywhere else anyway

I always believed that honestly is the best policy,

but trust me, that quote is overrated as for me, it brings unhappiness..

allow me to share, white lie is the best as of today..

although it may hurt you and it is sucky but at least you had know tat one or more people is happy with the white lie you have provided them with.

Life is a like a drama stage, full of play pretending and acting...

the best actors gets the award and recognition, well loved and treasured.

what happens to the bad actors, hah!

of course the bad actors struggle to survive, duh?

Left with 2 more days till hari raya and im not feeling raya at all

Im having 3/4 weeks of attachment due in 2 weeks time

and currently waiting to end my last exam paper which i think will kill me this thursday

then NYP 2nd year, semester 1 begins in October.

Touching on examination,

i always believed that hard work will pay off,

examination is a piece of peanut if u have really prepared yourself,

that's how i did well in my ITE days,

being prepared and be in controlled most of the time..

comparison to ITE days, NYP isnt a piece of peanut,

someone i know once reminded me that different places have different expectations,

that you shouldnt be upset for whatever results you get,

because hard work is all that matters, not about getting all As in examination although it is infact a bonus for a student to achieve all of that..

with that,

i prepared myself for Carrots or even Dinosaur printed on my result slip for my NYP Year 1 Semester 2..

Life isnt fair aye?

Allah have a lot of ways to test those whom he loves

as all of us know, we always take things and people for granted..

iam guilty for it as well, i confess..

it only comes to you like a smack right across your face when whatever you have taken granted for, is now leaving or is taken away from you..

It is painful and sad to have all those unhealthy thoughts and feelings

but sometimes, you just cant help it dont you?

those who share the feelings as me would understand for i know u have also lost something along the way as well...

I always believed things will always be right after wrong things happened..

all we need is now patience.. to be patient for all the wrong things that is happening now to pass by and awaits for all the right things to fall along the way..

be thankful,

however easy for it to be said or written but it is the most dreadful thing to do..

we are human afterall,

dont be hard on yourself,

however easy for it to be said or written but it is a torture for us to go thru it..

May We/I

sail thru this stormy sea, Insyallah

2010-05-24T18:45:00.004+08:00

mei you qian le :(

the whole of june not going for tuition

die lar

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anyone wants me to suffer for you??

plss.. anyooonee??

heh

why nursing student requires a lot of money?

uniform only sells in a set of three

only once a year

module textbooks cost above $50

borrow from library, only haf 2 copies in e entire library

sometimes, u cant even smell the book!

if dont read textbook, get lost in tutorial, cannot understand

if cannot understand how to study for exams?

die die haf to buy right?

tsk tsk tsk

transport adults fare are killing

sigh

at the moment,
haf to swallow hard for december to come

before i can get a confirm monthly pay

patience patience patience

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indeed, iam living in the world of the rich

no money, no talk!

got talk, all about money!

2010-05-18T21:07:00.000+08:00

i miss you long hair :(

2010-05-17T19:40:00.003+08:00

I can almost see it that dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,

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Every step I'm taking, every move I make feels
lost with no direction
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My faith is shaking but I got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high
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There's always going to be another mountain,

I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
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The struggles I'm facing,

The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but No I'm not breaking
I may not know it but these are the moments

that I'm going to remember most
Just got to keep going
And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on...

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
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It's all about
The climb

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Keep the faith
Keep your faith

2010-05-02T16:23:00.004+08:00

And so i took a break from the constant trying to finish up my last week's forever building up assignments..

anyways, update since im deciding to slack with blogging..

today!

i ate chicken porridge for e late breakfast and

maggi mee for my late lunch..

i wonder wat's cooking for dinner.. hmmm..

Im having a super terrible vegetable horrible COUGH

which is superly irritating my poor poor respiratory tract..

oh.. is it just me.. or it is really hot today?

im sweating as im typing now..

School have been such a bitch..

everything just wont want to go my way..

2nd week of school gone just like that

it's like in a blink of an eye!

in next 2 weeks,

i will be doing a presentation and a theory test which i really hope i can do it well..

i was trying to put things into place this week,

however maybe i was thinking too much,

and with the ever increasing workload,

everything was so superly crazy..

thus, making my immune system low,

and tadaaa im having all the flu, fever and horrible cough.

Helo Mr Flu, Fever and Cough,

i would really appreciate if you would go away..

i need to be well and be on my toes for my studies and future..

School wont be nice to you when u are sick..

They just leave u behind..

kesian me kan kan kan??

So be gone ok? I need it to be SOON.. no..

NOOOOOOW!!

Thank you, if u ever read me! :)

Take care of your health people,

dont overwork like me!!

poor poor your body :)

u cant be a superman everyday anyway!!

even superman needs to clean his underwear dont he??

or did he not??

2010-04-25T23:08:00.002+08:00

hello to those who still linger around

i hope there is hahaha :D

i have been busy with new things and challengers in life

i confessed i lack of dedication to this blog

well, there's pretty a lot of reasons why i dont

mainly because i dont own a laptop

but i do now somehow hah!

let me see what updates i can write here for now

shy have passed on

i am doing my diploma now

i have 4 new hamsters

i own a laptop now(half ownership.. still haven finalise lo huhu)

i am still in a relationship with Mr Special, tQ

yeap!

i think that's the major thing tat happen so far

im as always surviving in my studies

been tough always

i hope i can blog more

haha

HOPE!

till then,

hugs! :)

2010-01-12T00:00:00.003+08:00

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more of the pictures
back from kampung
fun..scary days in batu pahat
love it hate it
miss boyfy
till the next entry :)

2010-01-05T17:14:00.003+08:00

when i listen to wang lee hoom song- kiss me goodbye..

i really feel very down

sigh

bluah!

anyway people..

happy new year! :D

m i late? hehe

i finally get to end 2009 :)

i waited for this year to end so so much

at least to wat i wanted to achieve.. :)

i was clearing my old hp memory card

because brother wants to use it

i was blue-toothing a lot of photos and songs

and gosh was i suprised at what pictures i saw

haha

a lot of memories

some are funny ones

some reminded me of the tough life i was going thru

that was the memory card and hp that i brought with my old money

hp that i used for 4 years

alrights!

pictures :D

memories of friends at jurong bird prk :)

i still want to show u more

but

LATER! :D

2009-12-06T20:22:00.009+08:00

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HELLO!
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i wonder is there still any eyes reading this?
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OH, there is??? NO?? :(
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im currently boyfriend-less for the next 3 days to come

sigh
so i tot i had pen something here to feel better
to erase the boredom
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anyway,
how have i been?
been better than ever
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just 5 more days before i graduate

i cant wait for it all to be over!
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since he's not ard..
Mr Comot have been my best buddy
even Mr Comot misses him too
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come home soon..
i and mr comot is waiting for you!

2009-11-02T13:09:00.001+08:00

u should believe everyone can shine :)

2009-10-08T01:21:00.002+08:00

2009-10-03T12:22:00.005+08:00

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle

I don't know where to go, I can't do it alone
I've tried and I don't know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down
I know I've got to let it go

Slow it down make it stop or else my heart is going to pop
'cuz it's too much, it's a lot to be something I'm not

I'm a fool.

2009-09-20T11:05:00.000+08:00

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Selamat hari raya! :D

2009-09-20T00:26:00.003+08:00

its amazing
how one person can change your life
how a smile from you can erase everything bad
how life seems less scary when you are holding my hand
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its phenomenal
how fate brings two strangers together
how i survived before i knew you
how, whenever im with you its like a great new adventure each and every time
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its beautiful
how love can be so unconditional
how learning about you is like reading my favorite story
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how loving you is so ................................................

2009-09-14T16:28:00.012+08:00

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Hello people!
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And Hello YX! :D
(i know u are reading.. and stop going to my past post.. they are deleted! LOL)
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Anyway,
How is the kuih raya coming along?
Im so thankful i have an expert sister at home
i suck in baking
seriously! but can learn lo hee! :p
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Finally,
the BCLS cert! Phew~
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Below are some few pictures..
some memories during the last few days in campus
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(Khairul, GQ, Hanif, Hakim, Miss Cat, YX, e front perasan boy is Taslim & far right is Sufian)
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It was supposed to be all the boys in the class
but what happened to Sufian tat day again? MIA la tat boy
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Picture drawn on whiteboard by Natasha :)
similiar to my PCB Lecturers right??
Such cuteness lo.. Lol
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Some funny things we do at the lab
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Picture taken during buka @ Simpang Bedok
1st time there over my 1yr plus in Simei
Shoik lah i tell you the place
Must go!
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will miss doing work with team :)

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and e some fun n boring lectures at MLT :)
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Till the next post!! :D

2009-08-30T21:36:00.014+08:00

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hey people!
oh yes im still surviving ,still ever smiling
heh
many things is happening this time round
i dont have much time to update and
it's a lot of downs along the way and the stupid emotional updates
anyway tat's explains the MIA
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let's update now!!!!!!
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Birthday cake, special n yours
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It was my 21st birthday
the 1st spending my birthday with special :)
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PSY assignment, Behavioural Sci theory test marks
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Then there was so many projects and assignments to complete
not forgetting the theory tests
and BCLS (sigh)
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With head of nursing : Mdm Sup, receiving an award for best academic performance
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One of the nicest thing that happened,
That day when my whole of last year efforts was recognized :)
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on a boat otw to fill water in blue containers
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i was looking thru some old pictures

i suddenly miss the trip to pulau kasu
feel like going there again
hmmm...
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our couple ring :)
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in Main Lecture Hall
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i'm feeling graduation already
counting days to my very very last ITE examinations
hurry hurry... so many things to do!
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outside main lecture hall
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but thank god for wonderful friends
that make stress go away for a while
hah
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then it will be my 3 weeks semester break plus raya,
going to chiang rai, thailand to set up a clinic for a village,
and then there will be my last clinical attachment,
a class chalet
and GRADUATION in feb 2010!!!
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wish me luck people
Gambatte!!!

2009-08-03T07:34:00.003+08:00

No one has told me that it was going to be an easy road ahead
All said it's impossible to make it thru that dark road I've chosen to ride
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They tell me to walk backwards
for i'm now hurt with bruises on my knees
as i fall hard on that full of obstacles road
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I have done my best and
i will continue walking forward with my head held high
even if failure and disappointment awaits me.

2009-07-30T21:46:00.000+08:00

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face your world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

2009-07-21T05:09:00.005+08:00

i have no idea why i wake up so early today..
now having headache.
sigh
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i've been getting back my sinus..
skipping vitamin C is no good
esp when your stress buttons is high
sigh
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need my supplements real fast
cannot tolerate waking up every morning having sinus
booohoo sinus
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2009-07-16T21:45:00.004+08:00

I just got home from school.. all settled down and ready to have dinner..
so mum asked the typical all time fav question,
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"What did you learnt in school today?"
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I took a while to answer.
Kalau tak jawab, nanti mak mula lar dia punyer "standard lecture"
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"Tu la kau.. sejak dah ade mataair, tak pay attention in class, asyik ingat cikgu ahmad jeee!"
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Tak patut tak patut!
It's not fair to me kan kan kan...
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So i said
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"Mak.. hari nih lecturer ajar pasal SEX."
LOL
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Now i understand why arwah atuk dulu takmo cucu dia jadi nurse.
Hah!
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It was really really a TOTAL SEX EDUCATION in the Main Lecture Hall.
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the weird thing is,
there wasnt any boohooo or laughing or giggling
(except for me n some clicks, of course we did it behind our notes duh! :p)
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those going to be nurses were paying FULL ATTENTION
yang selalu tidur pun tak tidur nih!
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i left the Lecture Hall a little disappointed at the end of the day,
i din know sex education was serious stuff.
LOL
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2009-07-07T23:29:00.003+08:00

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why.....
it's always been my fault
im not e good person
so i suck in being there.
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i tot....
i've always tried
i did my best to be supportive
i tried to be available.
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cant we just be happy together?
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it cannot start....
if you dont talk
if you refuse to be straight.
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i've never liked to use force
if you want it to be in that way,
i respect you.
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no one better understand you but yourself
no one can understand what you are going thru but you do
no one can make decision but you
you! are the key to your life
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tell me
how to make this better
how you want it to be
to solve in your way.
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tell me soon
i'm slowly getting tired........

2009-07-05T10:11:00.001+08:00

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There is one moment in your life when you are with someone and you feel like the world has stopped and your life ..seems perfect, make sure you never lose that person..

2009-06-28T21:18:00.003+08:00

our 1st...........
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booohoo
i'm such a loser!
i din prepare anything for exchange..
i should have known :(
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thank you sweetie for this surprise..
i cant say anything more about how i feel for you each and every coming days..
having you seems like a wonderful dream and i dont want to wake up ever..
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PS: i heart you mr ahmad luqman. A LOT.
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2009-05-14T18:26:00.002+08:00

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I'm going back clinical next week!!
No June holidays!
And i miss cikgu Ahmad!
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counting the days to 30th May..
make or break me :)

2009-05-02T22:50:00.002+08:00

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when the swine flu strikes
and i'm stuck at home!
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2009-04-27T00:07:00.002+08:00

there was this time when u as a child believe in fairy tales
that you will meet the perfect prince of your dreams that you've been waiting for?
maybe fairy tales do exist
oh well just maybe, i'm still exploring..
hmmm..hmmm...

i forgot how it felt and i want to feel it just once again :)

Im counting down to 19 days
and also another 45 days

2009-04-15T05:16:00.001+08:00

officially having a intimate relationship with attachment.

busy bee

NYP here i cooooooooooome :)

wish me luck and wellness people

need this badly!!

2009-04-12T15:50:00.001+08:00

edited by brader azmi

quite cool

u can visit his page for more of his creativity

http://dracozerocool.deviantart.com

2009-04-04T19:31:00.002+08:00

time check: 0730pm

i sooo sooo scared.

i'm bloody hell scared.

i'm feeling sick in my tummy already

it will be ok

it will be fine

2009-04-01T14:41:00.003+08:00

i learnt tis from rez!!! thanks uh rez own u one!!

hahahahahaha

here's my current exam results!!!

so haaapppyy~ so worth it!!!

this is the paper that was so super power ranger asam pedas punyer susah!!

many of my friends drop a lot in their GPA bcos they totally changed the exam format in those past years exam papers..

alhamduillah~

2009-03-31T19:16:00.005+08:00

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i freaking want to moooooove on... find a good man and get everything started..
i'm already behind time...i dont want to end up alone, old and miserable.. just like christina in grey's
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but whenever i feel like starting one..you always appear out of no where?
u suck do u know that? cant u just leave me alone?

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just stop bothering me
just stop entering my mind
just stop you're whispering
just stop everything abt you
u had better be dead!
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haven you given me enough? it's going to be 2 years now.. really am tired..
give me the space to live again, to be in love again, to have the strength again, to trust people again, to give it all again....
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please leave me
i need this ..i really do need to move on ...
you did so now let me do it......
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"Kau membuat ku berantakan. Kau membuat ku tak karuan.
Kau membuat ku tak berdaya.
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Kau hancurkan aku dengan sikap mu. Tak sadarkah kau telah menyakiti ku.
Lelah hati ini.. Cinta ini membunuh ku~"

then again.. is it you or is it just me...?

2009-03-28T03:07:00.002+08:00

I LOOOOOOOOOVE JAAAAZZZZZ!!!

so the sexyyyyyyyyyyy~

irresistableeeeeeeeeee!!!!

2009-03-22T17:54:00.008+08:00

what was i up to with the yellow long cloth?

what is the day?

ah,

tak tau kan?

today is singapore's Dementia Awareness Day lah!

i joined the celebration

and we had mass exercise with the yellow stretchable rubber

then we had to have a long memory walk to boat quay

very very tiring

so we stop by a lot of places

and snap snap snap!!

after the celebration,

we were all huunngrryy

so we went to change

and to marina square!

guess what we ate??

haha

it's popoye's!!

sedaaaaaaaaap~

remember the cashbox karoake session?

here's FINALLY

the pictures :)

it's hoooooooooolidays!!

but everytime also need to come back campus

student seminar and more BL meetings!

bluah~

tommorrow,

i'm getting my neeeeeeew passport!!!

excited!

wonder how i look like in the front photo

sure tk handsome

haiz

hahaha

but still excited~

farinaaaaaaa!!

here i coooooooome!!

hahaha

kid,

duit tk cukup lagi hahaha

cant wait for thurday session

going to sing along again!!!

2009-03-17T10:01:00.003+08:00

ibu's bro wedding

cant say much

let the pictures do the talking

got to run for afternoon shift!

bye~

2009-03-14T14:19:00.006+08:00

saturday morning

alone and bored

i carry shy out from her box

shy, teman uh baca suratkhabar

baik jgk eh concert rock tu

ade bandi amuk

yeah yeahhhh

i know who this is!

it's the women who likes to fall when singing knite!

wahahaha

which one do u think is handsome??

i cop tis one ehh!

hmmmm...

i tot shy can now pick who is handsome

so i carry her back to her box

and showed her this man....

what!?!?

@##$%^&*%$#

lu gila la!

pijak je!

org tua tk sedar diri keee??

but ok wat? u see the body got 6 small boxes lei!!

ok lar if i sit on his face

now handsome!

wahahaha

lol

then i showed another man picture

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chey of cos lar this one handsome

*shy shy shy*
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whahahahahahahahahaha

random i know :)
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this is the only picture i have from the date at cashstudio

on wednesday with the girls

hahaha

and i'm still waiting for the pictures to be send to my mail

and sadrinna is such a kaki merayap

so dont hope for the pictures too soon

i'm going for my 2.1 internship this monday

for a week with mr de leon !!

jgn jeles hehehehe

then i'll have my 3 weeks of holidays

ya holidays!

but u think i will enjoy the holidays?

no of course

student seminar will take most of my holidays

bluah~

tomorrow is erlin's montel engagement and fai'zah's bro wedding

i'll be going with bro

psst... org tu ikut mak lak ape je

so are u coming along?

2009-03-11T22:23:00.002+08:00

i'm such a happy bunny

today was filled with lots of laughter

a release of everything that have been a big spider web in thee heart

songs and more songs

it was heaven to be able to pour thee hearts out

and not worry about what others think about thee

letting go was such happiness, such fabulous feeling

even if it means a sore leg after so long not wearing thee heels

it was all worth it~

girlfriends are power

i believe i can only have so much fun with the girls

maybe i'll turn myself into a lesbian soon

haha

p/s: pls get well soon baba, farina is very worried about you :)

2009-03-09T15:11:00.006+08:00

once upon a rainy day,

there live an ugly orange t-shirt girl

who just finished her PCA paper.

it was a very very tough paper

so she needed to de-stresssssssssssss!

at first it was decent,

but later on..

oh well,

it was a success!!

Here's is to why::

yeap!

a lot of big mouth smileeeesss

shup up, i know smile big is a no no

so wat! bluah~

2009-02-27T00:09:00.002+08:00

i miss being jambu lar

with make up and lipgloss

long straight hair

miss miss miss

then i also miss e selenge part

everytime also need to be serious

everything also running out of time

everything also so fast fast one
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iam stress out

and e fact that blogging now

when it is already midnight

i even feel so si-annnnnnn

because

i need to bloody sleep and

wake up for tommorrow tutorial!!!!

counting days to

FINAL YEAR 2 SEMESTER 1 INCAMPUS = 10 days

2009-02-15T12:58:00.003+08:00

rasa mcm dah panjang, kalau gunting pun ok gak....

tapi...

asal nak gunting rambut je..

rambut mula la nak eksyen cantik..

tak jadi lagi gunting rambut!

notty notty la rambut ni..

2009-02-14T00:44:00.002+08:00

still cant get over with twilight saga

heh

bio lecture was cancelled on vday!

haiz

boooooooooring

haha

two more test on monday to go~

PCA & Bio test 2

biler nak game dah

so many saturday burn just like tat!

2009-02-10T22:22:00.003+08:00

i passed my 1st bio paper!!

full of endocrine glandsss and lots of hoooormoneeess

lol

got myself a 91%

boleh larh

thank god!

p/s: i miss my buddies, heels and freedoooomm!!!

2009-02-02T22:59:00.002+08:00

after all stress in campus,

brader alfian decides to treat all of us to cashbox

and of course

i sunk my heart out!!

lol

and we all had fun :)

we went to er..

sakura at near republic poly

pls dont go there at the moment

the toilet is HORRIBLE!

batal niat nak membuang haiz

buat sakit perut je

i'm trying to survive in campus

it's pack and full of action

action = test

test = every single week on monday

and oh

did i tell u that i truly truly destest GERON

thank you

i may be getting my bio test result tomorrow

if my bio teacher is in her good mood

gosh worried about my marks,

for sure i'll pass but can i score??????

i'll update soonest :)

2009-01-10T22:32:00.003+08:00

my first week of sch.

and this is what i've got to do.

15/1/09 : SCSI phase test 1

29/1/09: Bio 2 class test 1

2/2/09: Geron project due

7/2/09: Intravenous therapy phase test 2

20/2/09: Project Management 2 due

23/2/09: Bio 2 class test 2

9/3/09 : Exam

10/3/09: Exam

16/3/09 : Start a week of internship

tell me about it!

do i feel i'm going to die soon?

NO OF COURSE.

remember"whatever i can believe & conceive, i can achieve"?

haiz.

wish me well people......

2009-01-08T21:04:00.002+08:00

@ Batam cum spa :)

2009-01-04T21:41:00.002+08:00

goodbye 2008...

goodbye year 1...

hello new 2009..

hello new year 2...

hope it will be more fulfiling ..

i will be happy in it.

insyallah :)

2008-12-27T20:47:00.007+08:00

Hi Rez!!!!!!

back wif some pictures from e holidays

a super long holiday

syoik uh heh

first was wif fam

at PD aka Port Dickson

angah took some of the hotel pictures

but i dont haf it now

oh well,

here's some of the pictures i have!

we just cannot get enough of the toilet

and the bath tub

it's an open concept toilet

which means

u open the front door,

u see the bath tub!

haha

fun fun fun

we spent mostly in the hotel

around the hotel

the hotel is super ranger lah!

we did gym, swimming, jacuzi, sauna

........

the lobby.

hahaha.

tis one was really haiz

donno wat to say

hahaha

oh yes,

we had nothing but FUN!

rite, there goes 3 days 2 nights.

afterwhich i went to bestie's house

for a stayover cum engagement

for another 4 days 3 nights.

best kan?

oh,

i dont have pictures for the one at bestie's house

there's one!

but but err...

i show la eh.

tell me abt it

i did REWANG ok?

hahahahaha

2008-12-16T02:06:00.003+08:00

it's has been raining

e feeling sucks really~

i broke my specs

*sorry bright pic it was e flash on k.ngah hp camera*

not exactly broke it

a crack on e lens

haiz.

there goes my pay lo~

i'm off to ho ho holidays!

i'll be back

take care peeps~

2008-12-14T14:28:00.004+08:00

I love them!

see how thin they are

omg~

my idols la konon

all blacks~ :)

i'm on ho ho ho holiday!!

happy like a bird la kan

cant wait for bestie meet up

super long never meet lo.

.
so tis december

my family are going ......

ah, will be back with e photos

insyallah ;)

Next year is gonna be a better year

get better in time?

yes,

i've forgiven you n i will let you go.......

2008-12-07T10:37:00.006+08:00

i wanted to show u my noticeboard

in studyroom

here it is

this name tag is from joining SJAB

hahahahahhaha

the jurong bird park name tag

haiz

miss working there.

some words of encouragement

to remind myself

again and again

heh

need to do it in the adam khoo's way :p

.

.

n of course

my internship rooster heh :)

.

.

i also put up my results for every sem.

here's this year result.

will update on the rehab posting soon

soon soon
i think.
.

bye!

2008-12-03T23:42:00.003+08:00

this picture.. is sooo nong nong ago ok?

haha

kena caught le

cannot do this anymore lah..

i will miss u bunny bunny :(

but oh well...

i've got this betina to take care of!!

hahaha..

paiseh take picture like tat hor?

but tat's the proper way to hold them by the way

it doesnt hurt them infact they are more relax and never struggle tau!

heh :)

shy shy

manyak kencing la manyak berak la

wa manyak penat mau cuci lu la

hari enam nanti wa cuci lu punya sangkar ok ok ? :p

bye!

2008-12-03T23:17:00.004+08:00

After a great time at rehab..
i got a call frm k.long..
to accompany her buy a top for her yet another meeting..
as usual..
we she wore couple of tops..
but eventually she decided!
~~buy~~ it.
great.. just how great tat is!
haiz

ah,

tat's explain my bored n siao face

n the uniform

haha

ok,

here!

some few pictures from last weekend

kak wewet ties the knot again!!

i wan to show u my noticeboard in study room

but

time check it's kind of errr.......

need tat sleep....play wif elderly

i teeeelll youuuu.....tiring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:):):)

take care!!

2008-11-23T17:46:00.003+08:00

this is my neeew pet!!

her name is SHY!

hehe

today i had spa!!

hahaha

ok it's just at home :(

i have exactly 3 more weeks to tahan

before i can have HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!

*sigh*

2008-11-17T01:15:00.003+08:00

rite.

i'm still doing my internship.

stuck with onco patients

haha.

so far so good

a little stress wont kill huh

i guess so

man!

need to get all the right gradesss!!

anyway,

i cant wait for Twilight to show in singapore!!

i'm sooo in love with edward!!

you guys must catch it when it shows~

2008-11-09T00:57:00.003+08:00

went out with the nursing peeps

catch a movie at vivo

it was always fun to camwhore with them

haha

bye!

2008-10-27T22:20:00.001+08:00

so many things is happening..

so many!!

i'm left but breathless

so little time

see

i've got to go now already

morning shift sucks half way

esp e waking up

hah!

2008-09-11T23:39:00.005+08:00

the after life.

the after world.

the other life.

the other world.

pass on.

i dont know i'm still in a denial stage.

i still believe he is with us.

he is here with us.

nope!

he haven left us.

no no no

he...

who called me hitam manis

he..

who teased me when i was thin as a stick

he...

such a nice loving soft hearted person

he... he... he...

i'm sorry sis jannah,

i read your bloggie n i couldnt hold my tears.

i wonder...

was he around all the time to witness everything?

i wonder...

did he see all of us crying for him?

i wonder..

did he realise that i was the only one who din kiss him goodbye?

it's my bad.

i know i should have did it

it's just basic courtesy u might say

respect!

i dont know what i was thinking then.

it was like an old movie screening in my mind

i see him laughing

i see him teasing

i see him loving his kids n wife n all around him

i see him smile

and all that i can do then was to be....

scared.emotional.cry.scared.emotional.cry

i still remember his face.

on that cold bed.

his ear.his eyes.his lips.

i'm sorry pak uda.

i just cant accept that u have moved on.

til this very day

but i know it's a sin for not letting you go

everyone will one day

it's just a matter of when

pak uda and baby

you have not left us, you never left us

you are still alive, bright and shining....

and you know it

YOU LIVE in my little little heart.....

2008-08-12T23:25:00.002+08:00

so sad tat they broke up

after all the time spent

hais

i shall be cool with it

anyway,

been busy busy busy with nursing

exams in less than 25 days

tis thursday is clinical nursing test

like #!$$#%^&$%&% topics lo

not forgetting

the forever sub sub sub topic

knn!

wish me luck anyway

i'm tired

need sleep!!!!

2008-07-12T00:02:00.004+08:00

Whoever said what you dont know cant hurt u,

was a total and complete moron.

Because for most people i know,

not knowing is the worst feeling in the world.

But as human being, it's better to stay in e dark.

Because in the dark,

there may be fear but there's also hope!

2008-07-07T21:57:00.003+08:00

you know how when you were a kid

and u believed in...

fairy tales?

that fanstasy of what your life would be.

white dress.

prince charming who'd carry you away to a castle on a hill.

u'd lie in bed at night and close your eyes,

and u had complete and utter faith.

Santa Claus, the tooth fairy, prince charming....

they are so close,

u can taste them.

But eventually,

you grow up.

one day

you open your eyes and

the fairy tale.......

disappears!

but the thing is,

it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely.

becos

almost everyone still has

that smallest bit of hope of faith

that one day

they'll open their eyes

and

it will all come true :)

2008-06-10T10:20:00.003+08:00

YEP AMP Camp 7-8 June 08

When people ask me,

why are u still single,

i say..

because all the good man

are already taken,

now all left the bad ones.

so if u were me,

will u chose single or them bad ones? :)

2008-06-05T20:26:00.007+08:00

UPDATES UPDATES!

ok fine.

many bugged me for updates

....here here read read....

i'm not MIA (read as: missing in action) laaaa

aper jer haha

i took up nursing

so currently,

'm having my internship, attachment.

in hospital, polyclinic.

yes,

as a nurse

an enrolled nurse

Busy, no time

balik so tired already

n i HATE morning shift

bangun soooooooooo pagi!

n afternoon shift

balik time soooo late!

thanks to the hospital n polyclinic location lar

wat to do haf to enduuuureeeeeeeeee :D

've got another 1 week to go before i finish them

and it's selamat hari raya for me

got holiday 3 weeks je

kesian kan?

haha

it was on 13th oct 2007

tat we got it started.

it took me 3 mths to know him.

us.

it was 20th oct 2007

tat we made it official.

now, it's been 7 mths.

i wish him well.

he should be having his best time

doing national service.

run boy run,

do all those push ups!

hah!

of course,

i'm still thinking abt him

abt the good times

n e bad times

i do miss him

n i will never forget him

but he is past tense

i've realised tat.

alrite with that,

recent pictures of me n ppl ard me!

i still do part time teaching at kindergarden

during sch holidays.

n i'm still a staff at JBP

i'm done!

tomolo last day being an intern at polyclinic!

another week in hospital

here we go againnn!!

2008-04-13T22:44:00.000+08:00

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

2008-04-03T17:37:00.003+08:00

i din know that getting As for exams is within reach!

all you need is ..

a little hard work,

willingness to learn,

do a little research when in doubt,

ask ask questionssss,

volunteer when needed,

and and

sit in front during lessons.

so if u ask how i get all my papers a grade A

tat will be my answer :)

suffer first enjoy later

study hard, play even harder

haha :p

i've got less then 2 weeks to enjoy

before i start with attachment!

this 2 weeks will be spend working at JBP

and

as the fun fun kindergarden relief teacher :)

2008-03-25T17:37:00.002+08:00

taman negara, kelantan ... u will be missed!

2008-02-22T20:35:00.005+08:00

Do you think you can survive without food for 30 hours?

My Expectations
It was back in late 2004 when I joined World Vision 30 hour Famine Camp held at Ngee Ann Polytechnic. What got me started was my sister. I was asked to replace a friend of my sister’s who was unfortunately down with chicken pox. Yes, I was just a substitute then. Well, a volunteer facilitator substitution I guess. I agreed to offer help after much coaxing from my sister.

Day 1
Registering at the counter, we were given a log book, our 2 facilitator T-shirts in black, an ugly and plain name tag and told which out of 8 different 3rd world countries that we would be assigned to. Cambodia was my country.

I was tense and cannot help but to worry because I really felt intimidated. The people around me, my fellow facilitators, were either in their early 20s to late 30s. I was just tiny winy 16 year old girl who have yet to even receive her N-Level result! To make it worst, the crowd I took was 10 HCJC students.

*the group of facilitators*

*Cambodia Grp*

Do they talk in perfect English complete sentences like; “Hi, how do you do? My name is Wilson. Nice to meet you.” That was freaky, I thought.

I took plenty of deep breaths to compose myself. I counseled myself that maybe after 2 days of camp, I hope to learn some principles and values in life and to obtain priceless experiences. What mattered most during that time was the fact that I got to be away from home. Of course, the anticipating fun too.

*the stopwatch*
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At 2.30pm sharp, we started the 30 hour famine. After the opening speeches from the organisers and few rounds of ice breaking, I lead my group to the next activity, the games.

Highlights & Challenges
We had to gain points from the games played in order to trade in eg. for a can of sweet drink, a bar of chocolate, this is to be shared among the 11 of us. There was always a free flow of plain water, thankfully, to always keep us hydrated.

There were many series of structured scenarios based on conditions and struggles faced by the people from the 3rd world countries. There were some activities that we are not able to complete due to the time constrain. Some of us were almost to giving up but we constantly encouraged each other. The group cheers never fail to lighten us up. Yet, there was 1 game which has left a big impact on me till today.

The game was called C.O.W. (Children On War/Work). The purpose of the game was to experience the suffering of the children that need to work in order to live for a day regardless of them being handicapped. So some of us were blindfolded and our mouth taped while others were left untouched, to give directions. I was chosen to be the blind and mute child.

I felt insecure. I do not understand some commands given. I was irritated because I was not able to see. I was frustrated that I was voiceless. I could only listen and obey to every instruction given. I was asked to crawl, climb, hide and run away from potential enemies. It was very physical.

Lessons Learnt
I have learnt that good communication skill was such a necessity. Trust in your team members is also vital. I had some bruises and little scratches after the game but it was all worth while. I was delighted that my group was able to complete the game safe and sound from any potential disasters/enemies throughout the game. Thus we were rewarded with a bar of chocolate. That was the first time chocolate was like rice.

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The activities at night were more of evaluative and reflective kind. We had talks on HIV/AIDS & poverty. We also had a sharing session. Everyone got quite emotional then. The talks were mostly about statistical facts and a candlelight session with candles representing lives that died every few minutes. Lights were out at 1 am.

Day 2

We spend one entire afternoon collecting newspaper in Tampines. It was my first time collecting newspaper! Some residents there were as if expecting us and they were considerate enough to bundle all those stuff neatly for collection. This was not an easy task, given that we would have gone without food for close to 20 hours by then. However, I believe we will be able to carry out this task well and with conviction, because we know that we will be contributing to a greater cause. Our group was fast as we completed 5 blocks of flat in 2 hours' time. We waited for the truck to load all the stuff before heading back to Ngee Ann Polytechnic.

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We got back to NP at about 4pm and rotted (as in sat in the hall and waited) till about 5pm.Everyone was tired and many were resting not forgetting HUNGRY. We were brought into the auditorium for a famine concert. There, I met Ms Elim Chew, managing director of the popular retail chain, 77th street (sponsor for the t-shirt).

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Furthermore, I was very honoured to be the only 3 Malays involved in the camp. Reporters are everywhere especially Channel News Asia. We were interviewed by Berita Harian and our stories were on the 2nd page of the paper the very next day. It was the sweetest memory. My face (although I looked a little retarded) was in a newspaper!

The crowd went ecstatic in the last few minutes of countdown, it was much like the New Year countdown celebration. People were literally screaming their lungs out in the final 10 seconds.

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Yes! We did it! It was incredible to share that sense of achievement with a hall of people. All then burst out of the auditorium to enjoy the sponsored burger, Burger King. Honestly, that was the most horrible but yet edible chicken burger ever. When you are hungry, anything is tasty, I suppose, that's why I finished it somehow. The hungry ghost festival descends early!

My Reflection
Through the newspaper collection, I did my bit for charity and contribute to the needy in the community. As I go for 30 hours without food, I had also learnt through reflection and experiential activities, about hunger, the ills of extreme poverty and the devastating effects of global diseases like HIV/AIDS on people and the countries affected.

Life lessons that I have learnt is that we cannot claim ignorance of the suffering of the poverty-stricken. I have become more conscious of the harsh challenges faced by those living in poverty-stricken and vulnerable communities. I also adored and enjoyed the games. It really relates how much suffering people in the 3rd world country are facing: hunger, poverty, aids and discrimination.

With this experience, it have affected my future goals as I hope one day I can participate in educating and organising health check-ups for free in any of the 3rd world countries. If I were given this opportunity, I will be able expand my experiences and skills in my nursing care.

I have become a stronger and better person in a way that I no longer waste food and practices recycling of things. I believed that there are many other unfortunate people if u think you are one unlucky person.

Although I participated as a facilitator, I still proudly say that I have ''graduated'' from the Camp with a stronger conviction to do more for the needy and less advantaged people outside my own comfort zone

2008-01-28T01:25:00.000+08:00

time check: 1.30am,

monday, 27 january 08

i've realised that days passed by quite fast that left me breathless sometimes..

that i felt i need to slow down and look up upon the sky and say many thanks to the Creator..

come on, tell me when is your last looking up the skies thinking of nothing

but the wonders of the skies, atmosphere and that fresh air you breath in??

there's just many things that i need to do that at many times i cursed and swear at how kentang my luck can be..for example, how can i forgot to bring my medical report for my hep b dose 1 immunization when i know i'm taking the cab to the polyclinic to have it done..

when i realised, it was just too late, wasted my blardy 8 bucks for that 10 minutes ride to cck polyclinic.. tell me people.. dont you just cant wait for the woodlands polyclinic to open this feb?

ay, the taxi fare blardy expensive eh!

oh, dont u think nowadays there are just many rude people around who doesnt remember their kindergarden teacher once taught them about the Ps and the Qs? i'm so disgusted since last 2 weeks - the rude people i experienced. blardy makcik also can be rude. oh my, ape nak jadi sey lu makcik, speaking london lak tu!

sadness lar kan?

i got many things to do in feb.. got my tests and exams coming.. got my napfa to do.. got practicals and that hep b injection..

i wish me well.. amin!

2008-01-13T19:34:00.000+08:00

busy-ness!!

why a day is only 24 hours??

i need moooooore

why weekends is only 2 days??

i need moooore

but i'm glad i've move on

busy

let's start this year well n end it well too..

God,

help me overcome everything in my way towards greatness!!

amin

2007-12-23T20:56:00.001+08:00

Right, decided to change the template again,
This is fresher kan kan
Heh~

Thanks to Filzah,

i've learnt how to make my entries short and terurus

you should learnt too!

So in todays entry for a start,
.

1) The gifts bf gave frm his bangkok trip (psst, it's not a teddybear i told ya!)

dont ask me why he brought tat sign okay,

i do not know!

.
2) If you are wondering why this chinese song as my blog background music

i swear it's not bcos i haf a chinese bf,
the lyrics attracted me instead
and the chinese is super simple ok.
so here... read the meanings (if interested),
.

"You love to hate the one who loves the one you hate to love."

2007-12-03T00:24:00.000+08:00

Sunday was spent okay

early noon, senior Afida's wedding wif kak ngah

afternoon my mum, kak ngah and me wash the grandis

and end the day wif kfc date wif twin!

wonders

i felt tat i really spend little time wif boyfriend

and i miss those early days of dating

but

i'm gonna get something tomorrow

but

haf no freaking idea wat boyfriend brought all e way from bangkok

something bulky he said

any rough ideas?

"aiyah, sure teddy bear lar nana!", confirmed kak ngah

say me?

let's just wait for tommorrow to come . . . . . . .

2007-11-14T00:30:00.000+08:00

hello people~

it's been a while huh?

been busy

i mean real busy

it's like as if 24 hrs a day is just aint enuff.

even my mum/dad/sisters are complaining!

and that's bad bad nana

not a good sign at all!

anyways,

things are good on my side

*except more money*

everything is going on smoothly (i hope)

and i changed a lot

experienced a lot of new things

*he has my heart, yes he do*

oh,

have i told u i looveee my job?

*working at JBP, there's always a chance to snap snap snap*

been fun!

i'm waiting for good news

but aint really confident about the good news

and if i get tat good news..

i will haf to leave JBP, my current job

*sadness*

oh,

haf u guys heard about

the woodlands primary school gathering tis 24 nov?

it's at causewaypoint seoul garden

meeting at 2pm near KFC

are u coming?

2007-10-24T13:26:00.000+08:00

Remember the first day when I saw your face...

Remember the first day when you smiled at me...

Remember the first day when you called me...

Remember the first day when you took me out...

We had butterflies although we tried to hide and we both had a beautiful night...

The way we held each others hand,

the way we talked,

the way we laughed...

It felt so good to find true love.

I know that he loves me cause he told me so I know that he loves me cause his feelings show...

When he stares at me, you see he cares for me...

You see how he is so deep in love...

I know that he loves me cause its obvious...

I know that he loves me cause its me he trust..

and he's missing me if he's not kissing me and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell it so.

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed...

Remember the first day we stopped playing games...

Remember the first day you fell in love with me...

It felt so good for you to say those words cause I felt the same way too...

It felt so good to fall in love and I knew right there and then that you were the one...

So i'm so happy, so happy that you are in my life and baby now that you are a part of me,

you've showed me the true meaning of love.

chey, nana so mushy lol

2007-10-02T14:36:00.000+08:00

i've learnt something

from the experiences of working at my work place

"rub some balls if you need to!"

on that record,

if you NEED TO

or if you are capable of doing so

now,

dont start rubbing any round things you saw

and claim you did it because liana said so in her blog

you just dont!!

i'm not teaching any to go being a bitch

dont do it ok

why bitch?

be someone with a positive attitude instead :)

and so

i freaking TOT

men was easier to work with

me and my stufit tots again, sheees

men can be such f**ker than women!!

p/s: iam not naked. pls!

2007-09-26T06:13:00.000+08:00

with sudden,

i have an itch to update

itchitchitchitch

A couple of hundred years ago,

Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success.
Never leave that till tomorrow,

he said, which you can do today.

This is the man who discovered electricity.

You think more people would listen to what he had to say.

.
I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess,

I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear.

.
Fear of failure,

fear of rejection,

sometimes the fear is just of making a decision,

because what if you're wrong?

What if you're making a mistake you can't undo?

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The early bird catches the worm.

A stitch in time saves nine.

He who hesitates is lost.

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We can't pretend we hadn't been told.
We've all heard the proverbs,

heard the philosophers,

heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time,

heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day.

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Still sometimes

we have to see for ourselves.

We have to make our own mistakes.

We have to learn our own lessons.

We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore.

.
Until we finally understand for ourselves

what Benjamin Franklin really meant.

.
That knowing is better than wondering,

that waking is better than sleeping,

and even the biggest failure,

even the worst,

beats the hell out of

never trying.
-Meredith Grey-
.

.
For a kiss to be really good,

you want it to mean something.

You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head,

so that when your lips finally touch you feel it

everywhere.

A kiss so hot and so deep you never want to come up for air.

You can't cheat your first kiss.
Trust me,

you don't want to.

Cause when you find that right person for a first kiss,

it's everything.
-Alex Karev-

i'm so in love with grey's anatomy

shoot me people shoot!

2007-09-17T20:08:00.000+08:00

Sometimes..

when u say about happiness..

it should begin with being happy about yourself.

Sometimes..

when u say about how unlucky u are..

look around you...

there is indeed many who want to see your smile.

Sometimes..

when u say about how unfortunate everything was..

start with improving rather than blaming.

Sometimes..

when u say about how stupid u had reacted to situations..

face it, u WERE stupid so move on.

Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai,

Wo dong wo ye zhi dao ni mei you she bu de,

Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin,

Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni,

Wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai.

Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan,

Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai,

Wei shi me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo,

Bu yong dan xin de tai duo,

Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo.

Ni yi jing yuan yuan li kai,

Wo ye hui man man zou kai,

Wei shi me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni,

Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni.

2007-09-12T23:55:00.000+08:00

it's all been the hate hate hate thing.

why there isnt any like love like thing?

have i been complaining a lot?

fine,

i know i complained

everyone does, hello!!

but

i dont think i spill my complains to any

listens to their complains instead

i hate complaining, seriously.

so tat's why,

i hate my current situation

i dont like ME now

just, because there's lot for me to complain

starting from

my hair, my face, my fats,

my t-shirts, my jeans, my nails,

my work, ppl ard me, boys...........

the list is never ending!

i want to change to soemthing like;

the new liana

the bubbly liana

the confident liana

the fun-loving liana

the healthier liana

the positive thinking liana

to be able to look straight and smile

to be LIANA

Allah, please help me overcome this period,

it's beginning...to hurt me.

2007-09-05T16:28:00.000+08:00

i hate being left alone

i hate to wait for answers

i hate being left in the dark

i hate it wen it's always been me me me

so dont start -

say i'm indifferent

the next step is to moooooooove on

i will,

starting this thursday.

i'm trying, soooo love chinese

oh, u should too

i mean to move on, have u already?

wow, smart move indeed (bluah~)

2007-08-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

Weeeeeee...

i'm 19 years old!

and forever will

although my face doesnt say so!

anyways,

i relief for sis noi's class

and all i had was

FUN!!

really fun

really nice to dance while learning

especially the penguin song!!

so loving it!

so here are the pictures i managed to take

cool riteee??

hahaha..

thanks for those who have wished me well,

i din replied cos i was siiicccckkkko!

2007-08-21T23:08:00.000+08:00

i think august aint the month to take pictures
august is a fat fat month!!

for me. . .

.
anyways,
today was spent super super fun with my girlfriends!
girlfriends are much better than boyfriend
huahauhaua
.
i'm super tired
just let the pictures do the talking rite?
.

i was very scared of the birds ok

noty noty bird bird

dont laugh!

the birds love me many many

until it gave me loveBITE to bring home as memories

thank you very much bird bird!!

we finished the day

wif a big smile on our face!

girls,

i really hope that u girls enjoyed your trip to ...

my work place, jurong bird bird park

hehehehehe

So,

let's not take anymore picture fattie!!

ok....

roger n OUT!

2007-08-16T19:41:00.000+08:00

as i wish under the lampu minyak tanah......

hMmmmm...

I tot that Ipod is bery niiiiceee!

Can i play portable psp on the mrt?

My hp memory real sucks. How does 1gb sounds?

It's been years since i ride a basikal. Rite?

I cant wait to get my hands on that wheel. Seriously!

and so

i continued wishing

hoping for dreams to come true....

"Naaanaaaaa.. maggi seketol!"

kacau line betul lah!

nak berangan pun terbantut!

cheeeeyyyyyyyy

abt friends, faith and honesty

2007-08-11T12:32:00.000+08:00

2007-08-08T15:40:00.000+08:00

LIANA A.RAHIM

What about her?

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Well she keeps herself out of trouble but sometimes trouble finds her. Seriously!!! Believe me, I’ve seen it happen. It’s actually that, other people put her in trouble. She is extremely good listener and can listen to you for hours and hours, until I myself get bored listening to myself yapping away. Our asses were so hot from sitting that we could fry an egg on it!

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She doesn’t complain that much unless there’s a need too and she doesn’t freaking care what people think about her. She knows who doesn’t like her and knows what they are talking about. May it be about her or someone else but she’ll just smile and walk away as if the stuff they said didn’t register into her co-koo head. What others don’t really know is that she swallows it no matter how hard n painful it is. She always hides pain but never have she hides joy and laughter even when pain is killing her inside.

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Chinese girls back in Sec 5 loves her more than any Malay girls in the class and the quiet boys sitting at the corner behind would smile and greet her, when all the rest of the girl population in school didn’t exist to them. These boys could make a conversation with her but not with the other girls. Jealous woi!!!

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Many would say she is just a normal kid from e neighbourhood, a normal plain jane. However, I disagree more than 100% not because she is my friend but because she is able to see things in people that no one could. Not in the sense where she has some ultra-vision or anything but in the sense whereby she sees the inner person of someone. Never once have I seen her make friends with someone because they are popular or pretty or handsome or to get something out of them.

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She is that person where doesn’t kiss people’s ass or suck up to anyone. She’s is that person who wants to see others happy even when she has to sacrifice herself. She is that person who doesn’t try to please people and always presents herself the exact way she is. Nothing less and nothing more.

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To me, -she is pure and genuine. She will say honestly what she feels and what she thinks.

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To me, -she is like coffee, that thing that u look forward too every morning and the thing that perks you up.

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To me-she is sincere. Everything she does, she does it for one reason. To make someone, that person where the deed is to go to- happy.

.
And to me,

she's more than any human can ask for…
May it be as a friend, as a daughter,

as girlfriend or as a wife.

Farina Yahya

It made me cried

It made my day~

2007-08-05T14:49:00.000+08:00

oh,

DONT catch disturbia

no good!

i hate having ulcer.

ulcer suck!

2007-08-02T20:06:00.000+08:00

u tot i would like you after u did wat u did?
u tot it was perfect?
puuure sweetness?
.
get A.L.I.V.E
you are sooo way out
you dont even stand a chance
not even 0.1 %
wat u did gave me a reason to hate u
MORE!!
.
i'm really at lost.
i dont want to hurt or get hurt.
but the feeling of telling the truth kills.
.
there are things tat aint worth telling and knowing.
you know.. sometimes, the wrong can be right.
.
honesty is the best policy....
and so u believe?

2007-08-01T12:15:00.000+08:00

dont let it fall if you dont intend to catch its drop, pig! after all putting good words in for you, after confirming that you will take care, and this is how you show your gratitude?

baboon!

why have to do this? is it very hard to be faithful? wat the heck you trying to do fisher! a fisher shall always be a fisher, like a leopard never changes its spots. i didnt like you from the first day introduced, but i endure because i tot i shouldnt stereotype. maybe indeed this feeling inside me was infact true.

i already have little trust on men. are u going to top it up with more hatred? enuff is enuff already. give me a drop of heaven will you? jangan jadi yang dikejar tak dapat yang dikendong keciciran!

yes, i'm harsh wen it comes to matters of heart. be wary of me. i'll see how you want to play this game

you already a big sore loser even before u decided to play this game fisher

2007-07-28T15:03:00.000+08:00

i should be more. . . .

1) crazy

2) funky

3) terkinja-kinja

4) Mentel

5) Innocent

i'm so attracting old ppl~

darn

tat's not something to be proud of!

aaaaa

or maybe. . . . .

i can be the next Siti NorLiana and datuk Y

lol!!

my foot

2007-07-24T22:54:00.000+08:00

yeahhh..

tomolo go hairsalon wif mum n angah!!

cutting hair again..

soooo excited

tk tau kenapa

gatal-gatal je

huahuahuahua

maybe just to layer or trim shorter

long hair is getting on my nerves already

muhahaha

"nanaaaaa!! masak mak mee sedap cepaatt!!"

.
grrrrr

why is it my whole family like my maggi cooking?

padahal setakat masukkan perencah je!

itu namanya....

P.E.M.A.L.A.S

not i cook nice

ceyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

wat only!

2007-07-18T10:45:00.000+08:00

Someone: "Are u pregnant? U not married yet rite? You look pregnant!"

Oh yes i'm damn pregnant.. coming into 3 months already you know!!

i purposely take this photo

do i really look like pregnant?

So ok!

Yes in the picture sure i do look like one

tapi mmg baju dia mcm gitu ape!

better now?

do i still look like 3 mths pregnant?

No?

Gd!

I haven LV okkk :)

i dont like LV brand anyway

Thank you!

I want my flawless face back!!

for k.noi's wedding

can?

uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2007-07-15T20:23:00.000+08:00

i've always hated rainy days

and today,

it was raining.

the sky was dark

filled wif heavy looking clouds

pouring its cold water droplets.

I stopped for a while

to look up into the skies

and as i closed my eyes,

i touched my chest

searching for the heartbeat.

felt the harsh wind smack my face

it was weird

it gave me goosebumps.

i sense 'me'

it was surreal.

just so sudden

i felt down, gloomy

just like

the weather...

2007-07-07T11:38:00.000+08:00

alhamduillah.. thank you Allah...

for making me able to endure,

for giving me ways for better teaching.

finally,

she understood on how to tackle the question properly!

Fuhhh~

"I didnt know tat i can do the question correctly! Yeaaahhh~!", said her.

like duh!

org ajar bukan nk dengar betul2

main lagik dgn getah tu buat star!

you know, i nearly gave up!

she was yawning away wen i was explaining

i need to smack her lap to listen

n as usual lah, mulut moncong semcm!

in my heart i was like, "die lah sure cannot do one!"

berguna jgk umpan dia dgn mentos

haiiizz, kopak le aku

hari2 nak kene beli jajan!

lol

Somehow kan..

i think,

i still find him better than the rest i know

hmMmmmm....

p/s: picture taken using my sista's sony hp which i think kasi karang guni pun dia kata barang dah reject!

oh, excuse the eyebags will you? thank you (:

2007-07-05T20:20:00.000+08:00

and if i have to make wishes right now?

i had wish

My family happier than ever,

my friends were nearer, tat somone i treasure close by,

Kick tat 3rd bas rite there, and world peace of course!

i haf always love peace (:

2007-07-02T20:25:00.000+08:00

The batam trip was ok!

The ferry ride is not mine tho.

nasib baik duduk sebelah cina hensem.

i did a hair spa while mum did her urut

Super cheap there

can bargain like from 85,000 rupiah to 60,000 rupiah!!

duit kita baru berapa kan?

hehehe (:

su,

you should know me inside out

he's not my cup of milo ok, u should get wat i mean

i find him familiar somehow mmmmmm

so here's my answer

if he lyk my pictures, say my thanks

mesti kes tgk gmbr tangkap cun tros nk kenal²

lepas tu nnt jumpe kutuk abis-abisan

Typical!

i dont wanna be rude cos i know he reads my blog (:

ckp dgn dia, i haf a boyfriend alrite!

2007-06-30T10:21:00.000+08:00

Updated-----

So let's make an entry.

just so tat i can clear the ugly pictures

Today

i shall watch transformer

@ AMK Hub

the first time watching movie there

(boo) i know!

i dunno whether to like watching it or not

because u haven watch it dam dam

but actually

i dont feel excited at all

i feel like chickening out noooooww!!

"darn u! Lianaa... be confident lah", said Farina

"Be urself!", said buddy Sue

"You think too much!", say grunge

i haf pictures to upload

but i'm almost always lazy to find the camera

plug in the wires

and press UPLOAD!

See su,

i haf plennnty of time the world has to offer

and always infront of the pc

but always ended up doing something useless

like trying to dl 200 pounds beauty

tho it was a success (hah!)

i'll try to upload

there's not much pictures anyway

Oh,

lets be hush hush abt the AMK Hub for now ok sue (:

let's not even speak a word about it!

i'll tell you the outcome

then we can start cursing all over again

Hah Hah Hah

Rite

i need to go and iron clothes

but wat clothes?

jeans-tshirt

naaaahhh~

I hate this!

I soooo regreting already ):

can i not go?

go la go lah

*smack forehead*

Going uh niiiiiiiiiiiiii~!

-updated-->>>>>

wah sehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

syoikkk lah i tell you!!

oh,

the outcome?

i tell you..

transformers did it all!!

tolak tepi la the one i was nervous abt

buat penat perut aje!!

LOL

but

one thing for sure

i think i handled it well

i should really thank tyra banks

haha

*smack butt*

welldone girl, u did it juuustt right!!

2007-06-21T20:43:00.000+08:00

sumpah!

i hate to look at the pictures of myself on the last entry

buat gua panas jerk!

i can hear the pictures go saying

"eh mok!! mok betul uh kau ni!"

(diam eh ko k.ngah)

control lah makwe,

kak noi wedding coming soon leii

lol

ohhhhh...

i've received a comment about my pictures..

He got hold of my hp

looking thru my pictures

everything started to change when....

he saw one picture

and he goes

" ini you ke??"

look at me.. look at the picture

" yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ke??? Lain seeehhhhh"

look at me.. look at the picture.. look at the picture

shall i take tat as a compliment?

u should haf seen his face lo!!!!

yeeeeeeeee keeeeeeee???

2007-06-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

went to CCK wif family

to eat seafood

brother treat

nice lah the place

and

the drinks areeeeeeee superb!!

canot tahan lah my gigi sakit!

plus bloodly war

aiyee

"u think having boobies is easy?" said Syerri

i really really agree lo!

haizzzzzzzzah!

2007-06-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

congratulation and celebration!!
.
11 june 2007 was the birth of this kid!!
.

.

Untung dapat boy rite after having girl :p

this cutie is owned by Malina & hubby :)

congrats!

btw,

i found something very very cool

and fun

n funny

n it kills my boring-ness

i didnt know it was so much fun until i tried it out myself

Unexpected? tell me a bt it haha

beyonce eh.. ape mcm? lol

so as a conclusion
my face is a lot like ann kok
and alicia keys
because it appear twice and most of the time lah
esp ann kok!!
.
nooooowww
i wanna see the celebrity in yoooooouuu
so i wanna start this tagging game all over again!!!
.
1) SYerri!!
2) Sulaizah!!
3) Suriyani!!
4) Eza!!
5) Safuraa!!
6) Cuzie Jannah!!
.
ok..
so the game is...
to find 1 or more celebs tat appear more than once!!
.
so who says we are aint alike celebs???
try it!

2007-06-12T15:24:00.000+08:00

i'm so PISSED OFF!

pissed off by the computer

i just cannot upload the pictures in my hp to the computer

upload and the computer went restart

making it worst

internet server down trooooss

whyyyyyyyyyy??

i was thinking about uploading the pictures

to show u guys wat i did over the weekends

and now?

all down the drain

aiiiyaaahhh

dont care already lah

"i hate yoooooooooooooooooooooouuuuu", said someone.

2007-06-04T13:09:00.000+08:00

I loooooove wedding !!!

.
So last Saturday and sunday was abg halim's wedding..

my very very close ex-jiran's son

we are like families already :)

The wedding itself?

very very nice i tell you!

.
yet again..

dad became the wakil to the groom

why eh dad you so fofular wen it comes to being wakil???

kesian bapak aku

haha

The girl's side theme was in purple...

and yes

i've always wanted to hear the nikah

so if u see the pictures properly

i'm exactly behind the "scene"

yah.. talk abt being anak dara
hahaha!

after all tat nikah, exchange of rings bluah bluah bluah

i was already exhausted!

so amik gambar pun muke mcm ~~taik~~ sweaty

being the well known (die die must be grand) cik rahimah..

of cos the wedding was super nice

and it cost them a bom ok?

kalah bom at nagasaki

hehehe

It was held at woodlands community centre

dreamt of something like tat for your wedding?

try saving S$30K noooooooow!

excuse the hair please

i know the bangs is bery kental

hah!

got some roses tooo :)

Oh,

happy bday to cik yati

and thanks for the makan

eh, actually should thanks to abg ajul

hehe

Here's a picture of me with the new (not so new lar) pair of eyes

beli around the mid of last mth

it cost me $88

if u are wondering where i brought it

u may want to linger around woodgrove

the shop is Manchester

just beside the chicken restaurant tuu

So which part of the wedding is very wekss??

the food larh!

not saying tat the food is not nice

it's super nice lah tk bagus!

eat a lot sia.. die lar like this

suuuuee, dont lose any weight now can?

wait for me and farina can?

hahaha :p

why is everybody getting married ????

rosak program aku!

LoL :)

but hey kak noi..

looking forward to yours soooonn!! :D

2007-05-30T17:23:00.000+08:00

to love is to suffer.

to avoid suffering one must not love.

but then one suffers from not loving.

therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer.

to suffer is to love.

to be happy is to love.

to be happy then is to suffer.

but suffering makes one unhappy.

therefore to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness.

Arasoh? Ming pai mah? Faham tak? Do u get it?

i hope you're getting this down.