* ShiTTeD *

It been a while since i last update this blog.. maybe i was busy with the upcoming performance.. i was so busy rehearsing and practising.. but eveything just like a snap.. run down the drain.. Actually this is wat happened..........

I was the senior intructor in the choir.. my junior leaders.. such as faridah & intan was down with NCC.. so they are not able to guide the choir girls.. so as the next leader.. i took their place la.. apprently.. some were not happy la.. of course.. i heard some said that i was berry EXTRA since i'm already OLD and should RETIRE..

But.. u think i care? HECK care!!! I dont give a shit.. cos Mrs Anita Long has already given me this bloody hell position in choir.. and by hook or by crook.. i need to do my job good and well !!

And so.. as usual.. i dont like to shout.. and i dont like to appear as the fierce leader.. i just hate it.. for example, in camps when i was the camp leader.. i was the only leader who did not shout.. i think the campers are mature enough to think when to shut up and listen and when to talk and do things.. "Duhh"

Before continuing.. i was known for the happy and funny kind of person in choir.. everyone likes me.. including the juniors.. everywhere i go.. if my junior happens to see me.. they will like say " Hi Liana.. " & Yeah.. even it is just a simple Hi.. but it meant a lot.. cos it shows that you are being respected as a person.. you know wat i mean?

Continuing with my story.. On the 22/3/2005.. Mrs Long had a meeting.. and my junior leaders are busy with marching.. and so.. i took charge.. as usual.. i was very worried for the choir girls.. they were not focusing.. and were simply cannot be bothered type..

I asked them to stand at the stage of the music room.. so that we can start singing.. everything goes out well.. the song had started.. but their mouth just cannot stop!! I was frustrated.. cant they see i was helping them practising? At least.. talk softly.. by hell of a no.. they talked like they were in a market place of something !!

I shouted.. i mean.. i was tired.. with all the studying and standing.. and they went silent.. ok .. this is the situation were i hated the most.. see.. they are silent because they are scared of me !! I dont want them to be scared of me.. please la.. this is my last year in that school.. and it's my last performance.. of course i dont like to be hated !! I was to leave the school in the positive manner.. now wat? I've already made an impression to my new juniors that i'm a veryyy strict leader.. ArgHHH... heck care !!

The next day.. there were another rehearsal.. in the hall.. where everyone was there.. including the principal and the vice-principal.. lots of teachers and of course lots of other students who are involved in the concert..

Mrs Long already given me the trust that the choir girls will make an impression on that day.. BUT.. i was dissspointed.. thing didn't went like wat i wanted.. at least.. the way Mrs Long wanted.. everything was in a mess..

I was the last reception for the merit award.. so i need to rush to the choir position to sing.. since i was the last row.. i need to climb on the bench before stepping up to a table.. that is already very leceh.. then Mrs Long played on the piono..

Everyone was clapping their hands.. eager to hear us sing.. but.. everything was rubbish.. i think.. i was not the only one who is disspointed.. the whole hall was disspointed.. as the leader... i felt wrong.. and of course.. i felt like shouting.. *Haiz*

SING AND REJOICE was not properly sang.. the lyrics was not clearly heard.. but thanked GOD that for that song.. there wasn't any dancing steps... so.. it was just the singing that sucks a lot..

Eveything starts to topple when Mrs Long played the piono for I DREAM.. since the piono was of a high pitch.. the choir girls starts to sing like MICKEY MOUSE.. you know.. high pitch and that high pitch is not a good one.. very yucks you know.. i was soooo lost... i dont know wat to do.. and if i'm a leader and i dont even know wat to do.. then i'm a big LOSER..

Everyone at the back of the hall.. was laughing and booing us.. i just cannot take it.. i felt like shooting each and everyone of them who laughed at us !!!

So.. i stepped down.. i stood infront of the choir.. Mrs Chua (Principal) was surprised! She asked me, "Wat's the matter girl?" And of course.. i was like, "Err..err... can i guide my choir girls.. cos i think they need my guidance..?" I was looking so blur.. but when Mrs Chuah says.. "Yeah.. sure.. rock on! " FUh.. a relief !!

So.. I was like my normal self... i guide the choir.. and the MICKEY MOUSE just dissapeared.. fuh.. another relief.. the crowd was back alive again.. they were sort of clapping to the song..

After the song.. Mrs Chua approached Mrs Long and asked..

"Who is that girl? What is her name? What is her position in the choir?"

So.. Mrs Long stood up away from the piono.. and replied with a smile,

"Oh.. her name is Liana.. she is the leader of choir.."

Of course.. i was smiling too.. then Mrs chua grabbed me by the shoulders and sort of bring me toward her.. and give me a peck at the back.. she said this while hugging me,

"Well done Liana.. you have done a wonderful job.. Well done.. i'm proud of you !!"

Heh.. i was smiling more widely now.. from ear to ear..

Oh yah.. today.. i'm going KL.. then Kuala Selangor.. then to Seremban.. then Negeri Sembilan... then maybe to muar or bukit siput.. i have no idea.. then to Johor Angsana !! My journey starts today.. i'll be back on Sunday.. Hopefully.. not late at night.. COs monday i'm schooling !!!

Sounds tiring??

Have a nice week end people.. and yeah.. a good friday to all.. :)