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Wednesday, May 25
* I waNNa DissaPear *
Currently, I'm forcing myself not.. ok repeat myself.. NOT to be online niether @ warung_thr.fm nor @ Yahoo Messenger nor MSN. Reason? Simple said i dont wanna confuse myself with my inner feelings and my head. Yeah.. i dont wanna be in the fantasy dream anymore. At least, for the time being can?
So for those who are waiting for me online, maybe u can just forget about it. Stop waiting cos i think i will be online on friday maybe? Or on weekends maybe? I dont know.. maybe i'll just be online when i feel like it. Can? I'm thinking, will my absence make (someone) heart grow fonder? You see.. i dont know wat i want in life. I mean in real life besides having a great job and stuff.. what i meant is what i expect in a relationship! Maybe i should not think about relationship at this moment. Maybe i'm not really yet for any relationship. Maybe i'm not eager for any commitment. Yeah.. i dont wanna have any commitment for the moment. Maybe.. i dont have enough trust for any guy. Yet. Yeap.. i dont trust them. They still haven manage to get my trust. Except for my dad lah.. he's out of the question! Break ups are the worst that can happen in a relationship... and of course.. everyone detest it.. to the MAX! To be frank, i'm scared myself!! Whenever i read malay novel especially those from Alaf 21.. i felt.. erm.. wat shall i say..in high spirits maybe.. yeah.. i felt contented.. and i felt that the girl in the novel is damn Lucky man! It's like real blessed! How wonderful isit to have such stimulating relationship! How i wish i can have such experience.. yeah.. HOW I WISH.. Argh.. forget about everything.. Happy happy.. yeah.. always remember.. dont worry be happy.. you have to enjoy life! Maybe i should just continue to read my novels.. yeah.. i've borrowed like 5 novels to read for this coming June School Holiday! Holiday? Nah.. there's no such thing as holiday for this year.. cos i have a lot of remedials to attend to.. n of course.. a load of homeworks to finish up!! Bluah~! Have a nice day people!! 0 comments |